Too frail to wake this time.

"This is why events unnerve me,
They find it all, a different story,
Notice whom for wheels are turning,
Turn again and turn towards this time"

I feel so tumultuous, I love and I hate.
I feel trapped and liberated. I'm begging to be let go. But I can't decide if what I'm asking for is unreasonable. I want all of your love. I want all of your loyalty. Faithful to me you should be 99% and to yourself 100%. Thats how I am with you. My identity is first, my love with you second. You're all I want, but its all of you I want.

I will sacrifice my life with you, but I would rot in hell before I sacrifice myself for you.

I wish you could understand.