And it feels like slowly, but inevitably I am dying of a broken heart, lying in a pile of the ashes of everything I held dear.


The only question is how I should start getting up again, and forming something new and beautiful so life can live again.

Too frail to wake this time.

"This is why events unnerve me,
They find it all, a different story,
Notice whom for wheels are turning,
Turn again and turn towards this time"

I feel so tumultuous, I love and I hate.
I feel trapped and liberated. I'm begging to be let go. But I can't decide if what I'm asking for is unreasonable. I want all of your love. I want all of your loyalty. Faithful to me you should be 99% and to yourself 100%. Thats how I am with you. My identity is first, my love with you second. You're all I want, but its all of you I want.

I will sacrifice my life with you, but I would rot in hell before I sacrifice myself for you.

I wish you could understand.